Goodness I haven't blogged in a minute!
A lot has changed since the last time I got on here.
That boy (yes, i said boy. He is definitely not a man) and I are no longer speaking.
I kicked him to the curb. I let myself have the last word..which feels amazing.
You want to disrespect me and say hurtful things?? NOT ANYMORE. You said all you need to say. I know who the better person is and I know who I am and what you are. You, my friend, are a low life, user who clearly doesn't understand how to respect a woman.
Clearly, I mean you live with one now and have gotten her pregnant twice and YOU STILL FUCK AROUND ON HER?? Can't respect her enough to man up and be together..just fuck her? You are one unfortunate person.
I feel stupid for falling for your shit, i mean clearly you agree..considering your exact words were "I can't believe you feel for all my lies."
You are someone who clearly isn't happy with themselves. You lie, you elaborate and you don't man up when you are wrong or make a mistake. You are not a man. You never will be.
It's comical how I've asked you to go do things with me, go hiking with me, go out with me..yet you say you have responsibilities. KIDS, RIGHT?? then why the fuck are you going out now? Drinking with other bitches, tweeting about other bitches?? Thought you loved your kids? That shit is comical. Clearly you are a fucked up individual, and I was sick of being brought down to your level.
Yes I was dumb. Yes, I made mistakes. But i gave you everything and took nothing..you did the complete opposite. You owe me $230. Who paid for your cap and gown? Not your babies mama.. not your mom or dad..ME. I did. because I thought you cared. I WILL NEVER MAKE THAT MISTAKE AGAIN.
I hate throwing away all my memories from college, because you are in 99% of them. But fuck it, I need to be happy.
I'm so proud of myself. I have left the most hurtful man I've ever known and I am trying to get better. I think I am worthy enough, but you never did. All you did was say mean, hurtful things... saying degrading, sexually abusive things. YOU LEFT ME NO CHOICE.
I hate that it still bugs me to see your posts on twitter. But I don't know how not to look. That's next on the list. I've learned to live without you on a daily basis.. i can do this.
I know you'll never read this.. but in case you ever do. Your sex WASN'T that good. I lied to you to make you feel better. Wish I could tell you the truth.. because unlike you.. I don't like to see people upset. I don't like to put others down to make me feel better about my pathetic, welfare fated, epitome of ghetto blackness life that you always said you were above. Too bad for you, you've fallen.
